got all my eve's confused!

so tonight i had a moment of reflection on the end of the year, as if it was new year's eve, and not the eve of christmas! but you know what, that's okay!

my dream of visiting washington dc becomes a reality! december 2010.

let me paint the picture for you. i'm having one of those moments where you're reflecting on your circumstances and just clinging the hope of change. i was sitting in my room, knowing i was looking for something, and then i came upon this bloggy:

The Macs

basically the story of this family is loosing their precious daughter, cora paige, to cancer when she was 11 months old, and the story of how the scriptures have become a reality of God's comfort to their family. amazingness.

lauren costin is a blessing of friendship! roadtrip 2010!

so here i am, bawling my eyes out as i read their posts asking for prayer up to the days of cora's death, and just reading of their progress since then, and the birth of a new baby, levi gerald.
then i grabbed my journal and started pouring out my heart in prayer. and this is the version that i chose to share with the few readers of my little bloggy. i thought about just posting pictures, but i'm not going to just bear my prayer requests for others out on the online world.

bestie, tim phillps = baylor mascot. = stud.
baylor vs a&m 2010. gig em!

but anyways, here's my heart:

Jesus,
I place my feelings, my hopes, my dreams, my angers, my fears, my future, my heart, my life, all at your feet on this Christmas eve. I know that you will not forsake me in 2011. Please transform my life to make it reflect you, to make others want to know you.

my life would not be complete without seeing the work that the Lord did during Camp 220, July 2010! (with Kristen Sidler)

take away my short temper, my attitude, take away my desires of a sinful nature, take away my laziness and my inability to stand up in boldness when necessary.
Lord, give me a heart for service and for your word. make me desire only you as i wake up each morning. bring a transformation to make my heart bold, loving, full of acceptance, courage, joy. a joy, not based on happiness but on your truth and existance. i pray that i will see your fruit in 2011.

sweet conversations with sweet believers in mexico. june 2010.

fruits that come only from you. i pray that you will open some eyes to salvation. (chances are, if you're reading this and think this could be you, i prayed for you by name. let's talk about it.) I need to be reminded that it is expected for my life to be filled with pain.

what a blessing to live with paigey! aggie football in october 2010!

i would not be able to fully comprehend all the characteristics of the Lord without many tears and trials. i pray for my future hubs, wherever he sits, that he will be strengthened by you this year.

theta fiesta!

i pray that he will be bringing glory to your name and that you will deliver to him, fruits of his labor for you. i pray that you will bring us to each other quickly, but also in your perfect timing, a timing we cannot argue with.

a silly wind blown picture with sweet sammi grace on her third birthday!

i pray for Andrew Skinner and Kristina Garza as they embark upon a marriage this year. I pray for Chad and Laura Welty as they await news of an adopted child that you are going to be delivering to them, in a perfect picture of your love for us.I pray for the birth of baby Lewis #3. I pray for a smooth college transition for all those seniors so close to my heart.

some of the most precious men of the Lord i know,
can't wait to see yall graduate! (at camp 220, July 2010)

and some adorable senior girls! aggie football, october 2010.

I pray for growth in the home church that i love so dearly, First Baptist Church of Justin. I pray that you will continue to develop friendships in my life at A&M and elsewhere.

bid day, august 27, 2010. i didn't know it then, but i was finding my home at a&m in theta.

I pray that you will shape me into a woman who fears you.
Amen.



Merry Christmas, Ya'll!