Thursday, June 23, 2011

please remember.

hello, hello! long time- no talk!

before anything else, can we celebrate Easter on a random thursday in june?

He took the punishment, and that made us whole.
Through His bruises we get healed.
We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost.
We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way.
And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong,
on Him, on Him.

He was beaten, He was tortured,
but He didn’t say a word.
Like a lamb taken to be slaughtered
and like a sheep being sheared,

He took it all in silence.

After the Sabbath, as the first light of the new week dawned, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to keep vigil at the tomb. Suddenly the earth reeled and rocked under their feet as God’s angel came down from heaven, came right up to where they were standing. He rolled back the stone and then sat on it. Shafts of lightning blazed from him. His garments shimmered snow-white. The guards at the tomb were scared to death. They were so frightened, they couldn’t move.

The angel spoke to the women: “There is nothing to fear here. I know you’re looking for Jesus, the One they nailed to the cross. He is not here. He was raised, just as he said. Come and look at the place where he was placed. “Now, get on your way quickly and tell his disciples, ‘He is risen from the dead. He is going on ahead of you to Galilee. You will see him there.’ That’s the message.”

The women, deep in wonder and full of joy, lost no time in leaving the tomb. They ran to tell the disciples.

{Isaiah 53, Matthew 28; The Message}

i pray that these precious words will be written on my heart, and yours today.

i just got back from seattle, washington with my youth group from high school. each and every person in this picture is so absolutley precious to me, and i'm so thankful for the blessing to spend a week with them! it was so humbling to be on the other side of the country, partnering with Paradox Bible Church, pastored by Pen Cook. He was an amazingly inspirational person to be around, simply because of his genuine passion for Jesus, and for his humble heart. More than anything else, it was wonderful just to see God moving throughout Seattle, and to learn about the culture there. You wouldn't think that within the US, the outlook on Jesus could be so different from place to place, but it really and truly is!Prayer walking through the University District and around the campus of University of Washington was genuinely life changing. I am always so excited to look for ways in which my prayer life can develop! Silly moment = i even got to see the UW Theta house!! I would have snapped a pic, but it wasn't the appropriate time, really. oh well, the image is in my nog forever! I also so loved getting to spend some time with a selection of the homeless population downtown. getting to give them some lunch, and to just sit in the park, feeling the breeze, and talking to them was my favorite. we got to learn all about their stories, how they got where they are, and share the gospel with them. i was so blessed to share conversation with a homeless lady named Stacy, to pray with her, and to hear all about her family members, scattered across the US. my heart hurts just thinking about these moments, wanting to relive them. we also spent some time serving a local community center, and it was just great to do some labor that could truly help out the community, and give the people there a beautiful picture of Christ.

i don't think i planned on writing all of that. so, i'll add some happy instagram pics. bc, let's be honest. we all like those! :)

until next time.



my new nightstand setup. i'm such a fan. it's the little things.



squinty, sweaty, and happy.


my phone background is these beautiful florals from a seattle farmers market.



i'm an anthro-holic.

i miss my best friend, while he's off achieving his dreams. check him out! singing my favorite!

new york, budapest, timosara, burzasca, london, san fransisco, and seattle. with this guy.



my little bestie.

Monday, May 2, 2011

a little pick me up before finals.

i heart this post.
i heart these sandals.
i heart this color.
i heart this website.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

the holy week.

my father, enlarge my heart, warm my affections, open my lips, supply words that proclaim, 'love lustres at Calvary.'
there grace removes my burdens and heaps them on thy Son, made a transgressor, a curse, a sin for me;
there the sword of thy justice smote the man, thy fellow;
there thy infinite attributes were magnified, and infinite atonement was made;
there infinite punishment was due, and infinite punishment was endured.

Christ was all anguish that i might be all joy,
cast off that i might be brought in,
trodden down as an enemy that i might be welcomed as a friend,
surrendered to hell's worst that i might attain heaven's best,
stripped that i might be clothed,
wounded that i might be healed,
athirst that i might drink,
tormented that i might be comforted,
made a shame that i might inherit glory,
entered darkness that i might have eternal light.

my Savior wept that all tears might be wiped from my eyes,
groaned that i might have endless song,
endured all pain that i might have unfading health,
bore a thorny crown that i might have a glory diadem,
bowed his head that i might uplift mine,
experienced reproach that i might receive welcome,
closed his eyes in death that i might gaze on unclouded brightness,
expired that i might forever life.

o, Father, who spared not thine only Son that thou mightest spare me,
all this transfer thy love designed and accomplished;
help me to adore the lips and life.
o that my every breath might be ecstatic praise,
my every step buoyant with delight,
as i see my enemies crushed,
satan baffled, defeated, destroyed,
sin buried in the ocean of reconciling blood,
hell's gates closed, heaven's portal open.
go forth, o conquering God, and show me the cross,
mighty to subdue, comfort, and save.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

sunday evening list.

1. the day that this semester is over will literally be such joy!
2. & that day is coming quicker than i imagined..
3. psalm 139 psalm 139 psalm 139
4. working the fbc paradise disciple now made my heart fall in love with 11 junior high girls.
5. i cried when viewing this.
6. this time next week passion 2011 ft worth will have already happened. so excited.
7. special k is one of my favorite meals.
8. you know you love your friends when you're so truly excited about changes in their lives.
9. loosing your debit card and student id = not awesome
10. i'm going to sleep so well tonight.


... well that was boring.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

cold tangerines.

i just finished a beautiful book by shauna niequist.
a long time ago, madi mae parker told me this was a must read. she said it was her favorite book before she even finished it.


"I want a life that sizzles and pops and makes me laugh out loud. And I don't want to get to the end, or to tomorrow, even, and realize that my life is a collection of meetings and pop cans and errands and receipts and dirty dishes. I want to eat cold tangerines and sing out loud in the car with the windows open and wear pink shoes and stay up all night laughing and paint my walls the exact color of the sky right now. I want to sleep hard on clean white sheets and throw parties and eat ripe tomatoes and read books so good they make me jump up and down, and I want my everyday to make God belly laugh, glad that he gave life to someone who loves the gift."

"Celebration when your plan is working? Anyone can do that. But when you realize that the story of your life could be told a thousand different ways, that you could tell it over and over as a tragedy, but you choose to call it an epic, that's when you start to learn what celebration is. When what you see in front of you is so far outside of what you dreamed, but you have the belief, the boldness, the courage to call it beautiful instead of calling it wrong, that's celebration."

“True friendship is a sacred, important thing, and it happens when we drop down into that deeper level of who we are, when we cross over into the broken, fragile parts of ourselves. We have to give something up in order to get friendship like that. We have to give up our need to be perceived as perfect. We have to give up our ability to control what people think of us. We have to overcome the fear that when they see the depth of who we are, they’ll leave. But what we give up is nothing in comparison to what this kind of friendship gives to us. Friendship is about risk. Love is about risk. If we can control it and manage it and manufacture it, then it’s something else, but if it’s really love, really friendship, it’s a little scary around the edges.”

“So when I’m on the edge, peering over into the unknown, trembling and terrified to move forward, devastatingly afraid to take that next step, I practice believing that full life is beyond the fear. . . God is God, he is leading my life, and that he is saying to me, as he has been saying to his people throughout history, I will never leave you, and I’ve left reminders all around, if you have the eyes to see them.”

only a few little glimpses into the greatness. this book was amazing. please read it. it makes me feel normal and okay for wanting to be excited about all the little things, to jump around for no reason even though i'm twenty years old, to not feel like i need to be serious twenty four seven, and when it is time for that seriousness, to refer to it as "serious squirrels".

my heart is constantly full of love these days. nothing in my life has dramatically changed except for the posture that i woke up one day and realized i had taken on.
my new posture reflects this beautiful verse:

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." - James 1:1-4

i used to think that this verse was about my attitude when bad things happen. about remembering this verse in the back of my mind. but as i woke up one morning to realize, it is about going to bed with a face wet with tears and being so truly excited because i know that God is hearing those prayers i whisper. that when i wake up, crawl out of bed, hopefully don't fall on the two foot walk to my desk (its happened before.) i am going to have beautiful intimacy with my creator via journaling letters to Him, and reading His word. it can't get much better than that, and it is a constant in my life. it's not going anywhere. that is so worth celebrating!

as much as i cry whenever i remember that there are orphans and think about heartbreak often, i just think that we should all be like my shauna niequist and try to enjoy sunsets and yummies and friends and laughter. we should just do that.


we shall see how i feel about this here in a few days once school picks back up again. :)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

oh, my heart!

God Story: The Howerton Family from ROCKHARBOR on Vimeo.

i saw this video for the first time about a month or so ago. my heart is already breaking daily for orphans and abandoned children all over the world. i truly pray that one day the Lord makes it possible for me to adopt. eeeeeeek!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

back again.

okay. so i've neglected blogging.
and by blogging, i mean, actually posting things on my blog that probably isn't really read by anyone. by blogging, i do not mean looking at blogs. i obviously still do this on the daily. :)

it is spring break. can i just say praise the Lord for that? you don't understand the joy of spring break until you are a college student. and my spring break is literally divided into complete perfection.

first half =
alex compton's lake house with 15 of my precious theta sisters for some fun and relaxation. this trip literally gave me such an appreciation for the girls that have been placed in my life. i can't even explain.





doesn't that look joyous? it was.

and today begins the second half which =
shopping and lunching with my momma, being home and getting to visit with all my first baptist church of justin lovelies, helping katherine with photo shoots, and just more riding in a relaxi-taxi until school & life continues to eat my face.

oh, speaking of school and life eating my face!
can we talk about how faithful Jesus is through it all?
i know this is something discussed often, but really though.
life has literally been crazy, i have been so busy and feeling so overwhelmed but
it has never been more clear to me that He is in control, that He is putting all of these things in my life right now for a reason. this makes my heart smile.

so enjoy your spring break, or enjoy your whatever.
and be jealous of this cute skirt i bought today.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

happy birthday, friend!


this is lucy. her birthday was on saturday. on friday afternoon a pipe in her apartment burst and almost all of her things were destroyed. life was turned upside down when a million maintenance people had to move all of her personal belongings into a new space as quickly as possible. now, things are nearly settled, and i'm quite sure she loved her surprises.

:)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

before and after on a saturday!

at canton a few months ago, i purchased a little shutter for the lovely cost of $2.
therefore, life = complete.

so in honor of getting a new camera, i thought i should show the few readers of my little bloggy what i did with it, via picture. :)

here's your before pic. notice that i am wearing a tank top, and this was taken at the end of december. excellent! also notice the rando black streaks that were on it. not attractive.

with the help of this lady:


as you can see, we painted the bad boy.

and here is the after, hanging in my house at school, over my desk!


isn't it lovely?

and that's my desk. don't mind the fact that i don't really know how to work the new cam yet, and that the picture is kind of yellow.

:)

Thursday, January 27, 2011

lately, my heart is full.

"my heart is full."
it's one of my favorite things to say.

i think it describes a combination of absolutley wanting to burst with joy in the Lord, but also feeling overwhelmed by His work and His blessings, all at the same time.

The Lord has just been loving me extra lately. :)
okay. that's not theologically correct. at. all.
BUUUUUUTTTTT, lately I have just been feeling Him grow me in so many ways, and I have been so stinking blessed to see His work all around me in so many lives.

I wish i could share all these situations that I am getting to see Him work in. Hopefully i will be able to tell everyone i know, soon.

but what you CAN focus on, is that He has been consuming my soul with prayer lately. through just a lot of hardcore journaling, being really intentional about using my time in the car, and serving on breakaway prayer team; i am truly feeling Jesus hanging out in my life.

things are by no means perfect. but i serve a perfect God.

a perfect God who i will be worshipping tomorrow night at an ACOUSTIC PHIL WICKHAM CONCERT!

if you clicked on that, you will have discovered that this worship will be at a men's conference. "what, victoria?! you are not a man?!? what is this??!?!"

girls are allowed to come to the concert at the end. :)
and i am thankful for that.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

pass the fortune cookie, please.


sometimes i like frecklies.


also, really quickly.

i like:
serving on breakaway prayer team now! yay!
not having chem lab during the first week of school. aka ZERO classes tomorrow.
happy little text texts with ":) :) :)" attatched.
being back in college station!
getting everything for the semester written down in my planner
moving $$ into my Romania account and praying my little heart out this week for that trip!
phone dates with lucy, my go-to-girl for everything.
amazon.com. (new camera? guilty. cheap textbooks? guilty. shauna niequest books? guilty.)
jason's deli.
sleeeeeeeeping
crazy love by francis chan


Saturday, January 15, 2011

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Resolutions:

oh, "wintery mix". how you keep my mother from allowing me to drive, and therefore substitute church with the creation of this blog. sigh. :(

So this morning, as i listen to the rain that will soon become icy roads fall against my windowpanes, i'm going to explore new years resolutions. i've never really done them before. they seem kind of silly. i think back to myself a year ago and i like to believe i've come leaps and bounds, without the help of setting a random little goal that i'll never accomplish! BUT, i mean, it's worth a shot, right?

but instead of coming up with one crazy thing that i will probably fail at, i'm just going to hit up a bucket list for this year. some things might happen and others might not. but i'll have something to look at for inspiration on a boring day.

Bucket List! Oooh, La La!
Try to keep the year as regret-free as possible.
Turn to God first in a crisis, not all my precious friends on speed dial.
Read a bunch of the old testament. and not like psalms and proverbs. but like, 2 kings. the big mommas of the big OT. the things i'm afraid to read bc i think i won't understand.
clean out my room at home and get rid of all the junk!
make all those crafts that i saved ideas for and never make.
be more intentional about following those tugs in my heart.
decide, once and for all, if i like, or dislike, honey butter chicken biscuits.
keep on loving all those who i care about, even if they aren't in the same town as me.
watch a football game. not attend. WATCH.
Go to Seattle. (okay. so, i saw this on someone else's bucket list and added it to mine since i'm already going there for a mission trip in june. i'm a cheater. eek!)
Go fruit picking.
Take a weekend trip to a different city.
Make my bed for a month.(this is kind of cheating. i love making my bed. this will be easy. but i like feeling successful!)
Write a "if anything ever happens to me" letter.
Surprise someone. (with a visit, flowers, something nice)
Send some fun mail to 5 friends.
Be intentional with investing my time in someone younger than me. aka discipleship!
Pray for someone specific for a month straight. repeat.
Finish all the books on my reading list.
Find a place to serve, long term, in college station. complete!
Do required reading the first time i think about it.
Enjoy every second i have left living with Paigey.
but also, look forward to living in the new house with Mere, Brynn, and Heather!
Spend less time stalking anthropologie sales.
Talk a walk in the rain.
Try not to look forward to mom/wife life too much.
Cut coupons!
Take tons of pictures and put them in albums of boxes to be later viewed by my children.
Support a Compassion Child. (complete!)
Do not buy anything for myself for one whole month.


... for now.

His love, & Mine.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

my number one pet peeve =

well, the thing most annoying me at the moment is when others copy the weird ways that i say things.

example: i have referred to cold weather as "chilly mc brr outside" since like, junior year.

the things i say are weird. i am weird. therefore it's obvious when people copy them. and then i just feel foolish for being goofy.

i just vented. it happened.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

these are a few of my favorite things!

1. celebrating the birth of someone who looks like the main character from ratatouille
2. emotions and joy being stirred up by a song that i haven't heard in awhile.
"Oh, How He Loves", never leave my heart.
3. long conversations with should-be-strangers while their twin sleeps nearby
4. chick fil a. ALWAYS.
5. being a maid of honor:

6. the large world map that is now hanging on my wall
7. colored bowls from anthropologie
8. cutting shapes out of antique book pages
9. this song: (and all others, kari jobe!)



10. new shoes!
11. writing short prayers on the inside cover of my bible, dating them, and waiting to see the Lord provide.
12. a new favorite movie: Tangled!

ps. i want to live this moment.

12. a whole new planner, for a whole new year. thanks vera bradley.
13. speaking of new stationary, getting to start a new journal. coincidentally at the beginning of the year.
14. a friend asking if we can make that friendship a serious one full of serious talks.
15. spilling chick fil a sauce all over the inside of the only purse i brought home for christmas break. oh wait, that's not so much a favorite! also with the non favorites topic: the scary nasty black swan movie & being stared at by a middle age man in barnes and nobles
16. sammi grace, chandler elise, and baby lewis #3. (can't wait for you to be born, peanut!)
17. the approaching return to college station
18. seeing people i love turn their lives around
19. today's letters new layout
20. sprinkles cupcakes (hey thanks chrisleigh for making me desire obesity via cupcake!)