it's been awhile. that's because lately, life has been a lot. but there are so many good things. 65 days until our wedding and I think if it was a single day more I might cry. I'm very blessed.
If we are honest, I have felt dry in the area of service over the past year or so. I weaned myself out of some incredible ministries I was a part of, and that took it's toll. A few weeks ago, I prayed that God would reveal to me what my passions in service were. What was it that got my heart beating? What brings tears of compassion to my eyes? What kind of service do I believe allows me to shine like Christ to people around me? I immediately knew. For years, I have loved reading adoption stories through several sources. I have watched some close friends, our Sunday school teachers from 11th grade adopt a precious bubbly baby girl. I knew that reading of people rescuing the fatherless and placing them in nurturing environments was what got my blood pumping. I knew that praying for the millions of orphans all over the world left me feeling refreshed. I was obsessed with what a beautiful picture of our salvation in Christ is displayed through adoption. But let's be real, although Ben and I are both passionate about adoption and know that we desire for it to be a part of our future, babies aren't a part of our plan for at least five years. That's just what we're working with.
For Christmas last year, I got my first DSLR camera. I loved snapping pictures of the everyday, and of the beautiful friends around me. The Lord provided several opportunities to practice my portrait photography. Although I enjoyed those experiences, I struggled a lot because I felt like I needed to do better, that I needed to be a perfect photographer two months into knowing what the stink aperture is.
And then it hit me. I wanted to get back into photography, and save all the money I earn to give to adopting families. I have read so many stories of God providing the finances for adoptive families and want to be a part of that. As we began to discuss this idea, we knew we had stumbled upon something incredibly happy. We know that during our first few years of being newlyweds, we are not going to be rolling in the abundant finances. However, we both have great desire to give. Not just tithe our 10%, but to give to those in need. This could be our way to earn money and give to families who are pursuing God's will for their lives through adoption.
That being said, included in this post are photos I've taken that are encouraging to me. Encouraging because I like them. I know I'll look back one day after learning and practicing and laugh at my elementary skill, but for now, they're happy.
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