Monday, June 2, 2014

Almost Halfway through 2014...




Recently, I've been reflecting a lot on my progress throughout this year. I started the year with a very clear vision of what I was desiring to work towards in the months ahead.

The year so far hasn't been at all what I had expected, but I'm still thankful for the vision and goal setting that took place. I believe that's kept me grounded to what is important.

We started the year with me coming down with a stomach bug on January 1st. Somehow that lead to almost a month in bed with flulike symptoms but the absence of the actual flu virus. Watched all of Parenthood that month. What a doozie! I was laying in bed last night thinking... I wonder why that happened at the beginning of the year? What is the purpose for me being in bed and pretty helpless for so long, following such careful planning for a fruitful year. I'm still not sure. Also last night, we were talking about all that has taken place. We've kind of felt like everything is crumbling around us. Yes, that might be dramatic. We are blessed with a wonderful home and jobs that we enjoy and a sweet pup and each other. But it's been hard. We've had trials in areas we never expected to be hard. We've learned a lot about the kind of friends we want to be (I want to be someone who shows up and is present and speaks only life and encouragement into others.. and have friends that treat us the same way) and how we never want to be so caught up in ourselves that we can't care about the needs and hearts of others. I can speculate all day long about the purpose for the things we've dealt with, I guess.. but one reason that has come to my mind often is to build the strength of our still young marriage. I didn't think I could love Ben anymore than I did when I got married, but I do. I didn't think that we could possibly be closer friends, but we are. For that, I am so thankful. But we're ready for a new season.

A week from today we'll be leaving for 16 days in Europe. Holla! I get to adventure the places where my childhood was spent with my husband. What a blessing! (more about our trip, here) We are both so excited and grateful that we have the opportunity to take this trip, and have started to see it as a turning point. When we return, one of the biggest changes is that we will be attending a different church.

When we got married, we visited different places and both felt an overwhelming call to return to the church where Ben grew up and I found a home in high school. So we went. We have nothing but respect for the church we joined, but we have been lacking community. Big time. We both believe that it is vital for us to be plugged in: studying scripture and talking about life and being in prayer with people that we call friends at church. And where we were, there were no other people in our life stage. It is all families and older people.. which is totally fine. But not where we felt we would be filled up and encouraged in the best way. Add in a hard six months, and without the support of anyone around us (that sounds so dramatic and I apologize for that!) it's been a time of being extra weary. We both had so many dear friendships with a foundation of Christ in college and dropping away from that has kicked our hineys. But we also hated the idea of "breaking a commitment" and "abandoning" and it has never been a part of our vision to bump from church to church. But we have let go of that pride in our lives and know that the Lord is leading us somewhere else. So yesterday was our last Sunday.. and when we return we're praying that God will lead us to the place where we will raise our family in years to come. We're seriously, SO excited. It will be really good.

To counteract all the heaviness of this post and bring it back to my 2014 vision...


  I want to live a year cultivating my identity in Christ. 
I want to be a strong, confident, bold woman of God who loves my husband and community well. I want to continue to pursue a career that is flexible and brings light to my heart. I want to cross off some big financial goals. I want to build my body to be healthy and strong and be conscious of what I subject my body to (food, cleaning products, skincare, hair care). I want to simplify and organize our home to make living here leave time for fruit to develop in our lives. I want to host and care for others, with our door always open. I want to be the loving arms of Christ to others. I want to give to and support the people in my life. I want to celebrate accomplishments and milestones big and small.

In a word.. I have wanted to build myself up as a strong woman of God. That's been my vision. Everyday, running through my head.. Strong woman of God. Even through the "storm"... I truly believe that the Lord has blessed that. I've lost fifteen pounds and built muscles I never thought I would have. (I've literally never played a sport in my life so this journey has been new for me!) I've been digging into scripture and weaving it into my life. I'm so proud of those little successes and ways that God has worked and carried me. He is so good.. and Ben and I both are so expectant of what is to come for the rest of the year, after our amazing trip. In my head I think of it as "Honeymoon #2" just because it will be so great!

How has YOUR year been so far? It's not too late to start thinking about a vision for the way you want to live over the rest of the year! It sounds so cheesy, but doing this has helped me so much!

7 comments:

  1. THIS was good. and you, my friend, are amazing!! <3 <3 <3

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  2. Hi Victoria,

    I don't know what denomination you are (or even if you were part of a denominational church), but I would strongly encourage y'all to pray about visiting a Church of Christ congregation. I grew up Methodist and then when I went to college started attending a Baptist church and now have been with a Church of Christ congregation for a year and a half. I've attended worship services all of my life and have never experience SO much Truth and community as I have experienced with Church of Christ. Their worship services are different than the modern/contemporary services we are used to, but it's purely Biblical. And beyond Sunday and Wednesday services and bible study, there is SO much emphasis on hospitality and community among the members. It's incredible! I hope y'all have a wonderful trip and find a congregation to worship with that is full of Truth and the edification!

    God Bless,

    Katy

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  3. I had no idea this was happening so soon! I am incredibly proud of you guys because I know how hard and awkward things like this can be. It is so encouraging to see your obedience and I cannot wait to see where the Lord leads you! Love you, friend!!

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  4. I hope you have an amazing trip and that when you get home, you'll find the exact place the two of you are supposed to be!

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  5. What a summer it shall be for you two! I hope you enjoy every minute of your trip; it's so soon! Oh, and don't mind me, I'll just be hiding in your suitcase ;) I'm praying for a sweet and smooth transition, with fast friendships and rich community in the months to come. He'll open the right doors for you and will bless your obedience & desire to seek Him first. <33

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  6. Praying for you Victoria! & I hope you have the best time ever on your #2 honeymoon!! :)

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  7. Praying for you all as you, Lord willing, end this difficult season and begin a new one in the Lord. Be encouraged sweet girl, "Oaks grow in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure." Enjoy your trip and I pray upon your return your new season of life begins as you embark on the journey of finding a new community to worship and do life with.

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